Finding Inspiration Despite Lack of Focus

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Had a rough day today. Normally, I'd be writing my plan for the week, but I'm going to wing it. Let's see what happens on the blog together!

I managed to get some things done, but just feel exhausted and not very focused.  When I say I'm not very focused, I don't actually mean the lack of focus caused by severe fatigue and brain fog (which we all know happens with people with Fibromyalgia).

I actually have gotten multiple hours of sleep in a row, without waking up thinking people were walking into my house or worrying about my children or whatever else. It's been a really nice change. Hopefully, my sleeping patterns will continue to improve. So, my lack of focus doesn't have anything that I can tell to do with fatigue and I'm not feeling particularly foggy.

Today, my not feeling focused has more to do with not feeling very connected to the universe or myself today or feeling terribly confident in MY hopes and goals.  As a result, my motivation levels are on the low side at the moment.  With only so much I can do each day before my body stops, I find myself spending my time and energy on everyone but me.

Currently, my efforts are focused on cleaning and reorganizing the house, fundraising for one daughter, maintaining an equilibrium with my other daughter so she feels valued also, trying to stay afloat, taking care of pets, and losing myself a little in the process.

Truthfully, as a mother, I lost myself a long time ago and really starting finding ME again through this blog and developing a purpose that drives me to keep moving and going forward. A purpose that is greater than myself, greater than trying to do as much as possible for everyone else, greater than a clean house or anything else.

My purpose is to help raise Fibromyalgia Awareness and make this world better for people who like myself have Fibromyalgia and realize we have a lot to learn about coping with and living with this syndrome.

Most of all, I want to get through to people who have loved ones with Fibromyalgia that Fibromyalgia is REAL and it changes everything in your life. Sometimes those changes may be inconvenient or difficult, not just for the person with Fibromyalgia, but for you as well.  Comparing the way of life before Fibromyalgia is not productive or helpful, life will never be the same way it once was, but given time and effort and genuine caring, it can become something positive and beautiful in a different way.

Anyway, due to feeling this lack of connectedness and focus at the moment, I started looking for something that made me feel just a little more connected and as usual I found it.  The search took longer than usual and required some effort, but I found an inspiration that has me heading towards the right direction again.

The inspiration I found was this video of Paulo Cohelo Quotes. I actually LOVE his quotes, stories, books, blog. You name it, I'm inspired by it (at least when it's in English and I can understand it).  So this video found me at the right time and place, I hope you enjoy it also.